11 weeks, w/203 days left.....life

Hello world, 👋

So I decided to come back to the blogging world, and share the many experiences I have been facing since 2015.

Our Father (The Solider/Preacher 🔰) ❤- In November of 2016 we lost someone very important to us. Someone that although we did not get to see each other often, we made sure we texted or talked with him regularly. Our father, our dad, the man we looked up too, the one we would go to with questions about the bible, and for the girls it was boys and men, our daddy. He was slowly slipping through our fingers, and never even told us. A distant grasp was all that we had. Once gone all that you are left with are photos, voicemaill's, and text messages, and the stories.....memories. He came to visit me one night to let me know that he was fine, happy in Heaven, and continuing to watch over his family closely. It was an amazing encounter, and one that I will never forget. He was and still is an amazing man that touched so many peoples lives. He never wanted to see his children/family/community hurting or struggling, and did whatever he could for us. No other love like a fathers love. I think of him often, talk with him when I can, and miss his presence here on earth, but I know his spirit is with us. 

2017 comes with surprises 👀 - It is a new year, and with it you have a chance to make yourself better, begin a new project, continue doing great at what you've been doing, travel the world, meet new people, GET ENGAGED, GET PREGNANT right......yea, soooooo that's truly what 2017 showered in!

So I'm pregnant, 👶11 weeks to be exact, with 203 days left. Right, it didn't happen in the order I previously stated, and no its not a big deal to us. I'm happy, sleepy, worried, loved, anxious, the list goes on! Praying daily for a healthy baby and pregnancy, no sickness, just tired a lot, blessed. Unplanned, yes, but not disappointed, motherhood has always been something I wanted but never knew I could get. Let me explain.......

I was never truly in loving relationships, meaning either they didn't fully love me, or I didn't fully love them, so getting pregnant was not an option. My thoughts were always centered around bringing a child into this world with two parents that truly loved each other, and I never thought I was capable of having a real loving relationship. Fast forward to November of 2015, when I met Anthony,👏 whom I later learned was going to be the love of my life. I could write the story of how we met and where we are today, but I will save that for another day. What I will say is we are both excited about our growing family (Anthony has two awesome boys from a previous marriage, no baby mama drama here). Our relationship is not always perfect, but we accept the ups and downs, work through it and push on. Its deeper than love, love is just the surface.....we are perfect for each other.💓

His proposal💍 was beautiful, not traditional, yet us! I could tell he was nervous, and that everything that was going on was a lot for the both of us to deal with, nonetheless, he asked me, and I said yes! I will share what he wrote later 😉. Our engagement and pregnancy have both been announced to family and friends. Excitement was followed up with questions of why we were not married before the baby, and how you really should be, but have since stopped. I, for one have stopped living life stressing that things have to always in some traditional way or order. I am not religious, but am a spiritual person who has a great relationship with God. Rant over.....we are happy and ready to take the next level in life on, not letting anything come between us.  Until next time ✌

"We were all born with a certain degree of power. The key to success is discovering this innate power and using it daily to deal with whatever challenges come our way." Les Brown